When I saw this picture for the first time in many years, I held it and studied it as if seeing it for the first time. I could not believe it was me. I felt much like Barbara Streisand’s character in the movie, The Mirror Has Two Faces, when she saw a picture she had never seen of herself when she was a little girl. I thought, “This is me? I was cute, fun, happy, loved and confident?”
As I looked at this picture, I couldn’t believe this was me. You see, like Barbara Streisand’s character, I had lost my way, too. I had forgotten who I was. It seemed everything I had been doing in my life for so many years was part of a journey to take me right back here – to being who I always was, this fun, happy, loved and confident person, much like what happened with Barbara Streisand’s character.
Quote from The Mirror Has Two Faces:
Mother: Do you know what I thought when you were a baby? That you looked just like your dad, and that Claire looked like me.
Rose: (looking at an old picture of little girl) What’s that? She was so pretty, even then. Look at those eyes. Those lips.
Mother: That’s not Claire, that’s you.
Rose: Me? I never saw this picture.
Mother: I found it when I was cleaning up.
Rose: This was me? I was pretty?
Mother: Your father adored you. But you know that. He never felt that way about Claire. Only you. I don’t think he ever held a baby until you came. He never wanted to let you go.
Rose: I’m glad you found this.
Mother: So am I.
Rose: She was very pretty.
Mother: You were very pretty. Remember that.
So, as I look at this picture of this fun, happy, loved and confident little girl, I am telling myself, “That’s me. Remember that. That’s the real me. The me before the ugliness of the world. The me before I lost my way. If ever I need to find myself, I need not look any further than this picture.”
We all need one of these pictures. It does not matter the age you are in the picture. Just find at least one picture of yourself where you shine, not just shine on the outside, but shine on the inside, too – you at the top of your game, confident and happy. Put these pictures where you can see them every day. And, remember, you do not have to find yourself. You just have to remember who you are.
P.S. Please note the pose. This is why I cannot wear dresses to this day.
Do you have a picture of you shining?
(originally written July 31, 2009)
“You just have to remember who you are.” Thank you for this reminder to live into our reality. How encouraging and empowering!
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You are welcome! It was a wonderful moment when I realized what was inside me and who I was all along. I was all there and had always been, but it had just been pushed down over the years. Thanks so much for stopping by and commenting!
Beautiful! I have a picture of myself and my little brother when we were probably 3 and 4 respectively. We’re dressed warmly in our snow suits playing happily on the slide in the winter. I looked so happy and carefree. I will take your suggestion and place this picture in a prominent place so that I can remember who I was then, and who I still am!
That’s wonderful that you have a picture like this with your brother, Sylvia! I love that you remembered this image, and it came to mind when you read this! It sounds like a wonderful image and definitely deserves to be displayed in a prominent place!
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you helped me to remember many funny pictures of me when I was a baby. I always smiled 😀 thank you!
Wow. This resonates on such a deep level in my soul and really makes me hearken back – and forward – to who I am. Love the little coda of humor and adorable pic!
Keep smiling, @Paola!
Michele, it was a true spiritual moment. It was as if the blinders had been removed, and I could at long last see what had been there all along. As I work on my Project365 this year, I want to include more images of myself and hope to get a few that truly capture this rediscovered essence. We all need more pictures of ourselves like this.