I have probably read more self-help books than I want to tell anyone. And while they have helped, I am not the person I always wanted to be. I don’t have the life I always wanted to have, but more importantly I am not the person I wanted to be.
I want to be whole. I want to be healthy. I want to be authentically me. I want to be loved. I want to be adored.
While I feel so self-conscious to even write that, aren’t these really the basic desires of the heart for everyone? Isn’t this what we all want? Is there really anyone out there who says, “I want to be an unhealthy, fraction of someone pretending to be me who is hated and scorned.”
And if you are, and you’re okay with that, then that is a whole other blog all together.
What we hear all the time is to be yourself. I am a wounded butterfly who never learned to fly. That is not who I want to be. I don’t believe it’s necessarily the real me, but it’s the me that I am all too acquainted with and have lived with a good part of my life, so long that I’m not sure where she ends and I begin. When we read, “be yourself,” the thought that comes to mind is that is exactly what I am trying to change. I’m fearful, insecure, and very unhappy. This isn’t about being who I am. It’s about being who I want to be and still being true to myself.
So how do we be the person we always wanted to be? How do we change your life? The same way you eat an elephant. Only with choices, not bites.
One choice at a time.
I have caught glimpses of the other me. She is quite different from the wounded butterfly me I’ve come to know so well. I’m going to use these glimpses to define the person I want to be, along with qualities that I admire in others. It’s these qualities that I will be using to help me make my daily choices. After all, isn’t our life really just made up of a series of choices?
That’s what this blog is essentially about, making good choices. If we have control over nothing else in this life, we have control over our own choices, after all, we are the leading ladies of our own lives.Pin It